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Did you say it?

Did you tell him you didn’t miss him?

I.. Yes, I did.  But I meant.. I meant I didn’t miss our baggage.  Our problems.

I’m not going to go back all the way to the beginning.  To when we first re-entered each others lives.  To where we decided we were something. To when we struggled to be that something.  Because, we struggled every step of the way.

I’ll say this – we had moments where one tried and the other didn’t.  Moments where neither of us were trying.  We went to therapy and couldn’t agree whether or not we should stick that out or quit.  So we quit.  Because the will of one was always stronger than the will of the other.

I’ll also say that I loved him but it was hard.  It was hard for the both of us – the loving.

I wasn’t perfect but I understand that I was not alone in the destruction of an establishment that so many hold sacred.  I wasn’t alone in it but I felt so alone.

The first two lines you read today are pivotal to our whole ending – the breakdown.  I can’t and I won’t go back now but I will leave you until later –



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Boundaries – just for the average bear?

When I’m at home, alone with Carrigan, I pee with the door open.


Because otherwise she stands next to the door and it causes oopsies.

Still why?

Because I like to make sure I can hear her too

You never know when a number two will sneak up on you

Then you’re left counting down the seconds

 Wondering what kind of crazy your 16-month old is getting into

TMI?  You betcha.

Well, today’s bathroom visit consisted of Carrigan following me to the bathroom

Where this one-sided conversation occurred

Carrigan enters bathroom and smiles at the sound of pee hitting the toilet water

“Carrigan, mommy is peeing in the toilet”

Nods her head yes as if she understands the statement

(Hey, maybe she does?!)

“Carrigan, you also pee but you pee in your diaper”

Note to self: maybe that’s too full of a sentence for her?

“You pee in diaper”

“Mommy doesn’t get to wear a diaper to pee in – she’s too big!”

“Someday you won’t pee in a diaper either – you’ll pee in a toilet almost like this one!”

Conversation over

I’m now left to wash my hands quick enough to stop her from taking all of the detergents and throwing them on the ground

(downstairs bathroom is also the laundry room)

*Don’t pretend you didn’t miss my über weird rants – besides, maybe Carrigan will be like totally into potty training and then, who’s the weirdo?  Yeah, still me.  But weirdo with a potty-trained 16-month old two year old*

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Countertops, sinks and faucets or “The things I rather research in place of taking my final take home exam..”

True story.

I’m currently multi-tasking/procrastinating doing something that is due by Midnight tonight.



In other news, Adam and I decided last year that we wouldn’t purchase christmas gifts for each other since we really wanted to do some upgrades to our current kitchen.

Our sink is ridiculous.

It’s a double sink and the sink, for whatever reason, tilts toward the drains.

Everything you put it in slides and clanks resulting in some cracked glasses.

That’s right.

No bueno!

Our faucet is just outdated, kind of gross and leaks

Our COUNTERTOP.. well, they get noticeably banged up even with the slightest tap

They stain easily (regardless of how quickly you clean up)

and we really dislike them.

It’s also warped around the sink area.

I started the “christmas kitchen” process by ordering a new sink and faucet.

We really wanted a Delta touch 20 and I found one for 300 (marked down from 600..) but….

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again..

I’m kind of cheap.

So, I found a nice Kohler that I had a 10 percent off coupon for.. and badibingbadaboom FAUCET ORDERED

Kohler Simplice in stainless steel

The sink is still a double buuuuuuuuuut

One side is much larger than the other so it will still be nice and roomy while still having an area to rinse off smaller glassware

Kraus undermount

I wanted a single but Adam did not.. so I compromised.

That was nice of me.. don’t you think?! 🙂

Now we’re in the great “countertop debate of 2011”.


I’m for the first one which is a granite called crema caramel or quartz in niebla which is a light grey color.

Adams for the quartz in black or quartz in dark grey.

Of course we couldn’t be more different in what we should get … But a decision will be made before 1/1 as we get 10% off if we order and pay by then.

We don’t really plan on getting then installed before march though so there will be loads of waiting!

As for our cabinets .. Our carpenter gave us some inexpensive solutions instead of replacement. So, yay!

That’s what has been on our minds for a little while.. someday I’ll get back to regular posting.


Not tomorrow though because it’s my biiiiirthday! 🙂  So I’ll be off celebrating that!

Happy Holidays everyone!!!


Crockpot Adventures: Sweet and Sour Chicken

I’ve been busy with school, as in, trying not to fail school and my life!  I’m only taking two classes but I find it impossibly hard to get homework done on my evenings off of school/work because I actually get to see my husband AND daughter at the same time when they are both wide awake!  I think I’ve probably mentioned it before.

I miss my lil’ ol’ blog though and my husband keeps suggesting I write something.  Lucky for you and not so lucky for me I’ve been sick for over a week.  Three different illnesses within 7 days.  I know, WHAT?!

I’ve been crockpottin’ it UP in here so I figured I would share a recipe I used (with a couple of changes..) on the 1 day I felt 87% this week!

Sweet and Sour Chicken Recipe found here


  • 4 tablespoons butter, melted
  • 3/4 c. ketchup
  • 1/2 c. white vinegar apple cider vinegar
  • 3/4 c. brown sugar
  • 3 tablespoons Worcestershire sauce
  • 2 cloves garlic, minced
  • salt and pepper, to taste
  • dash red pepper flakes or ground cayenne pepper
  • 1 1/2 c. chicken broth
  • 6 boneless chicken breast halves, skin removed *mine was frozen!
  • 1 can (8 ounces) pineapple chunks, drained
  • My addition:  1 macintosh apple diced w/skin
  • My addition:  1/2 pound of baby carrots (whole)

Wash apples and carrots and place in slow cooker.  Wash chicken; pat dry. Place chicken in slow cooker on top of carrots and apples. Combine melted butter, ketchup, vinegar, brown sugar, Worcestershire sauce, minced garlic, salt and pepper, hot pepper, chicken broth; pour over chicken. Cover and cook on LOW for 5 to 7 hours High for 6 hours, until chicken is tender but still moist. Add pineapple and cook for 20 minutes longer. Serves 6.
    I used frozen meat for the first time in the slow cooker and worried it might come out funky or maybe too dry in the end but it was nice and juicy despite it!
      I made mine with a side of roasted potatoes:
      • 2lb bag of Small golden potatoes > quartered > with skins
      • Olive oil
      • Zeus seasoning 
      Also, as an FYI, I only nixed the garlic because my father-in-law doesn’t like it and I wanted to see how it tasted before I made it for my in-laws.  I nixed the pepper flakes because I’m not a big spicy fan!  I also opted out of the pineapples because I was hoping my sister would eat some!  She didn’t but the change-up was fun anyway 🙂
        I would have added more carrots and apples but I was cooking for three people.  I’d double both if you’re actually making it to serve 6 people.
            The next day I served it to myself as sort of a stew.  I don’t like the way grilled potatoes taste once reheated (in microwave not oven) so I put a few spoonfuls of potatoes at the bottom and covered it with leftover sweet and sour chicken!  It was very yummy!
              This upcoming week I’m making a cheddar cheese and broccoli soup with a turkey/havarti/avocado/sliced granny smith on ciabatta grilled sandwich.  Drink of choice will be hot cider with cinnamon stick for added flavor.
                Who’s hungry?

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                My sweet 1-year old

                Our little “boo bear” turned one on Sunday 10/16!  It was a whole lotta fun for the adults and mostly fun for the kiddo.  Lets just say cutting three teeth at once is not a really great way to spend your first birthday.

                She was begging to do shots of tequila with her cousin Noah but I was all like “No, he’s a really bad influence on you…”

                My sister-in-law is probably virtually murdering me right now as her son is five months old… 🙂

                The decor for her special day was very simple!  Just as I had intended.  We had a lot of help with food and other items.  For that I’d like to give a shout out to:

                Carmen and Gloria (my sisters!):  Egg salad, Chicken Salad, Tuna Salad, brownies and pumpkin spice cookies

                Ronnie (my brother-in-law) and Jess (Sister in law):  Cupcakes

                Ben (future brother-in-law):  Last minute decor errands such as the filling of balloons and the obtaining of batteries

                Donna (mother-in-law):  Taking care of CG all day and making sure she arrived in her party clothes!

                All of my family:  For making Carrigan’s special day truly special!

                To the guests who were too far to make it but sent their love anyway:  Bethann, Michael, Caroline and her boys

                Am I forgetting anyone?  I hope not!

                I’m doing a slideshow of some of the photos of the day – I tried doing it separately and it’s taken me two weeks (because of time constraints).  If it’s going to slow just hit the next arrow (you have to hover of the slideshow for it to pop up)

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                Oh and yeah, there was a picture of my kid laying unhappily on the ground.  She fell and we all decided that it was too funny to pass the picture opportunity up.  She was probably thinking “Great, this is my family…”

                Get use to it, kid!

                To commemorate Carrigan’s 1st birthday we did a fingerprint bouquet of balloons.  I had pinned some fingerprint projects recently on pinterest and decided that a bouqet of balloons would be the most fitting for a birthday party.  The parents (myself and Adam) are the “floating away” balloons and the kids are the balloons on the bottom of the paper.  The adults are the big bouquet.  I still need to go in and edit some of the lines on the paper which is why I chose to do that part in pencil.  I am probably going to go in after the lines are perfected with a black fine point marker.

                I plan on writing the names of the guets on the back of the mat.  I’ve debated putting them on the outside on the mat but I’m not sure how that would look.  Maybe I’ll pencil it in and let you know how it goes?

                Things you’ll need for this project:

                Paper – we purchased white scrapping paper

                Colored stampers – we chose pink and green for CG’s as they match the party colors (couldn’t find yellow!)

                Mat – if you want to get fancy with it!

                Frame – we chose white because I love white…

                Thumbs! – We chose thumbs because they are more like a “balloon” shape.

                Total:  approx. 15 dollars (a lot of things where on sale)


                Have a great weekend all!    It’s off to our local costume parade this evening and some much needed family time!

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                Adieu Dahlia Aegean

                So, I said goodbye to the fabric I had originally chosen as the victor the to two week fabric decision.  I chose a similar fabric, floral with like colors.  The print is smaller scale than the large floral of the Duralee Dahlia Aegean.

                I think I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, I’m cheap.

                The 8.50/yard VS 25+/yard really swayed my decision.

                Duralee Dahlia/Foliage Aegean

                Liz Scott Sugar pop painted flowers in cream chartreuse








                The colors are similar but obviously not the same!  Personally, I don’t think it will change anything as far as styling the room.  It still makes me feel warm and cottage-y!

                I was also able to score a 1/2 yard of Tye Pennington’s chartreuse lace for an accent pillow and 1 yard of Joel Dewberry Opal in Jade for a cafe curtain in the kitchen!

                Tye Pennington Chartreuse Lace

                Joel Dewberry Opal in Jade








                If I like the Joel Dewberry enough I’m going to order more and make accent panels for the living room curtains.  Nothing big just something to add a pop of color + fun!

                I won’t lie .. I’m bummed about the Dahlia Aegean.  But, our wallet is happy.. very happy.

                Made any penny pinching compromises lately?  Do tell!

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                Fabric location assistance needed!

                Last month  I gave myself a 10/1 completion date for the bedroom curtains.  Well, with everything going on I haven’t even ordered the fabric yet!

                I went to do that today and noticed they were no longer 19.99 but 25+ and up to 70/yard at some other online stores!

                This fabric goes by dahlia aegean or foliage aegean and it’s by Duralee.  I would welcome any assistance that can be offered in finding it for under 25 dollars (I’m way too cheap to pay real fabric prices!)

                In case you forgot what the little beauty looked like:

                I’d like to get started next week at the latest so it might mean relooking at the other options I had given myself.

                Dang it for waiting too long!