Did you tell him you didn’t miss him?
I.. Yes, I did. But I meant.. I meant I didn’t miss our baggage. Our problems.
I’m not going to go back all the way to the beginning. To when we first re-entered each others lives. To where we decided we were something. To when we struggled to be that something. Because, we struggled every step of the way.
I’ll say this – we had moments where one tried and the other didn’t. Moments where neither of us were trying. We went to therapy and couldn’t agree whether or not we should stick that out or quit. So we quit. Because the will of one was always stronger than the will of the other.
I’ll also say that I loved him but it was hard. It was hard for the both of us – the loving.
I wasn’t perfect but I understand that I was not alone in the destruction of an establishment that so many hold sacred. I wasn’t alone in it but I felt so alone.
The first two lines you read today are pivotal to our whole ending – the breakdown. I can’t and I won’t go back now but I will leave you until later –